Monday, October 16, 2006

Progress progresses...

Well another week, another Post.

Only a couple more weeks until November and a return to sanity. Well, ok, maybe not, but perhaps a bit further away from insanity.

The good news? Well, there's lots of good news. My friends whose shit I was anxst-ing about a few posts below have managed to get said shit back together, for a start (yay, small feeling of inner glow for part played), but, nay, that wasn't the good news of which I was a-thinkin'.

Nope. The good news hereforeto alluded is that I have lost yet another two pounds, making me now 15st, 2lbs. Now, this was still in "silly season", whereby I am eating mostly crap. I suspect the weight loss is because I am doing a lot of exercise - mostly riding - at the moment. It does, however, motivate me greatly to get back into proper diet mode, because that elusive status of being "under 15st" is now well within my sights. From under-15st, under-14st-hood is surely only a hop and a skip away...

The bad news? Well the bad news is that I have just ended up volunteering to organise something else. Why, oh why, Oh Why, can't I get involved with anything at all without bloody well ending up running the damned thing? Why? Because I'm a damned fool idiot, that's why! It wouldn't be so bad if I actually had time to do everything that I volunteered to do, but when it comes down to it, I don't always have it. It's all very well saying "If you want something doing, give it to a busy man to do", but sometimes the busy man is just too busy.

That said, I think that this particular little event I should have time to run, as I have over a year to plan and execute it, and a committee - of sorts - to assist me, but still, I must make a mental note to slam my head in the fridge door at some point in order to chastise myself for yet another piece of damn-fool volunteering...

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Well, I did say that September and October were my crazy months.

Haven't had a lot of time for anything recently, let alone writing here. My bad.

So what has happened? Well, I have stayed constant at 15st 4lbs for the past two Monday mornings, which isn't too bad as the diet has not been good. To give you an example, I haven't been groceries shopping for over two weeks.

Also I have been smoking rather a lot, just recently. Now I gave up smoking some time ago, but always used to smoke for enjoyment rather than addiction and every now and then I have a little relapse and have a small smokeathon binge. However, this last couple of weeks I have been a stress monkey, and when I am stressed I tend to smoke. Smoking, as we know, is a bad thing to do, so I must get myself back into control and stop.

If I am being totally honest with myself, I only really do it because it is "naughty" anyway. It's bizarre, but if I really analyse it deep down, that's why I do it - because I know that I shouldn't. I never did rebel as a teenager, so maybe this is my teen rebellion finally seeking its self expression.

My teen rebellion is an idiot.